Sometimes being a mom kinda sucks

Dear Diary,

Sometimes being a mom kinda sucks. I love my children don't get me wrong. But the expectation of motherhood being all rainbows and sunshine is total bullshit. Sometimes it's hard. Sometimes it feels unfair. Sometimes I wish my kids didn't have vocal cords. Sometimes JJ eats hotdogs for breakfast lunch and dinner. Sometimes I don't shower. Sometimes I don't even change my clothes. Sometimes I want to hire a lactating nanny because sometimes I don't want to nurse my son to sleep. And sometimes, I don't want to nurse my daughter 5 minutes after she was 'done'. Sometimes I wonder if I really am doing my best. Sometimes my patience runs thin. Sometimes I yell. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I feel like the worst mom ever. Sometimes I don't want to do the dishes for the 3rd time today. Sometimes I don't want to cook dinner. Sometimes I don't even want to THINK about what I should make. Sometimes I don't want to pick up the toys again. Sometimes it's hard and that sucks. But I ALWAYS love my family. I ALWAYS nurse my son to sleep. I ALWAYS nurse Rowan on demand. I ALWAYS say I'm sorry if I yell and lose temper. And to be honest I'd be super jealous if I used a lactating nanny. These are my babies! MINE! I ALWAYS get a shower, eventually. I ALWAYS stop whatever I'm doing to listen to Rowan coo or hear JJs broken rendition of twinkle twinkle little star. And I ALWAYS do my best. And my babies will ALWAYS love me and forgive me for my short comings. Because I am ALWAYS their mommy. Sometimes being a mom is hard and that sucks...but not always.

                                  Honestly, Mommy